Too much to handle
There could be times so hard that we have no clarity. This is not a new situation for me. I am bored handling such situations. Maybe I am yet to learn the lesson well.
Actually, there is nothing to update. I am writing now to gain perspective. Call it interwoven, entangled, confusing… all synonymous with Indian delicacies like jalebis and idiyappams with no specific beginning or end… what matters is the middle. Maybe I should just savour this period and find a middle ground.
Let me take a Buddhist perspective of “why worry?”. Let me see if the different aspects of my migration process are under my control or not.
- WES: I have done my bit of application. Yet to hear from the University. My junior isn’t willing to go that extra mile to check for an update. I can’t travel to Pondicherry to check personally. This situation cannot be forced. It is out of my control. So why worry? I should give it time.
- IELTS: I have received the refund. Exam dates for February are booked fully. Booking for March is now open. I am unable to book for a weird reason. My sim card of my mobile number linked to my bank accounts is not working. I can neither pay via e-wallets or NetBanking. I can’t go out of my residence for three more days until I get better. Yes, I have all symptoms of a COVID Attack for the second time. I have not tested. But I have to be responsible and take time to recuperate. So the next option is to reach out to my friend who is also planning to migrate to Canada. No response on that front too. Can I do anything about this? Absolutely nothing for the next three days atleast. So, I simply have to PAUSE.
- SAVINGS: I went to the post office and the bank to check on my savings and got my passbooks updated. I definitely need a good 5 lakhs max to cover all expenses. Can I make this happen overnight? It is a matter of time.
It’s nearly three weeks since I paused IELTS preparation. This is something under my control. This should be my focus now. A couple of days to recuperate and I should bounce back.
Miles to go before I sleep…
May the Universe conspire with me to make my dream a reality.